life is short but sweet for certain

10:01PM

days like these should last

           and last

                       and last

                                    and last

17 years, 9 months, 7 days.
and in 13 days, i will be getting what i've been wanting for 17 years 9 months and 7 days.
fuck. me.

I just hope i won't fuck it up.

6:41PM - from sami

10 bands you've been listening a lot to lately
10. RHCP
9. Deathcab
8. The Fray
7. Imogen Heap
6. Blood Brothers
5. The Faint
4. The Go! Team
3. 50 Cent
2. Athlete
1. Rilo Kiley

09 things you look forward to:
9. summer
8. graduation
7. le promenade
6. getting my package promised by Connor & Trent
5. concerts
6. SUMMER STAGE!
7. boys
8. seeing the tripod every day :-D
9. seeing what D-palm wears
10. getting out of here

08 things you like to wear:
8. my katespade glasses a la emo
7. my new trippy watch
6. anchors
5. the skeleton key
4. aviators
3. anything with pockets
2. my prom dress :-)
1. my heart

07 things that annoy you:
7. people
6. marlboro
5. people in marlboro
4. new jersey
3. people in new jersey
2. guidos^
1. alot of things. i'm almost OCD

06 things you say most days:
6. stfu
5. the shari sound
4. wtf
3. i love you
2. obvs
1. penis

05 things you do everyday:
5. smile
4. put on my johnsons
3. listen to music
2. talk to shari
1. make fun

04 people you want to spend more time with:
4. linds
3. shari & ilana
2. connor/trent/eric/park/& rest of crew
1. my frosh!

03 movies you could watch over and over again:
3. howl's moving castle
2. mean girls!
1. endless summer

02 of your favorite songs at the moment:
2. Hump de Bump- RHCP
1. In da Club- 50 cent

01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. I was gonna say shari. .but im already obsessed.
the french. . .one in particular

10:52PM

Everybody hurts... every body cries. . .

fuck i can't even listen to this song even if i wanted to.
I think i'm going into depression.
I haven't felt this way since Mattieu flew back to France.
I can't even listen to Deathcab
I can't even listen to the horrible music i have
I can't even listen to . . . ashlee simpson.
my hatred for this school has gone through the roof.
The people who did this are disgusting. totally disgusting.

I just want my ipod back.
:-(



Maybe i'll start the. "Lets Raise Money For A New Ipod" Fund
along with the "Mengjie Needs Money For All These Rad Shows" fund
and "Mengjie Wants To Pay For Her College So She Doesn't Have To Go To Med School 300000 Miles Away"

fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
.
.
.
.
.

10:59PM - from stace face

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes?:
yup

2. Slept in a different bed?:
yes

3. Made out in a movie theatre?:
yes

4. Made out in the forest?
. . . no

5. Thought your cousin was hot?:
no

**no number 6**

7. Slept naked?:
yes

8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex?:
in a bathing suit

9. Gone over the speed limit?:
yes

10. Drove a car?
yes

**no number 11**

12. Danced in front of your mirror?:
haha all the time

13. Gotten a hickey?:
yess

14. Been dumped?:
actually. . . no. not officially

15. Stolen money from a friend?:
i steal quarters from shari :-)

16. Gotten in a car with people you just met?:
yes

17. Been in a fist fight?:
haha yeah. psh all the time

18. Snuck out of your house?
YES!

19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
yes

20. Been arrested?:
no

21. Made out with a stranger?:
yes

22. Left your house with out telling your parents?:
yes

23. Had a crush on your neighbour?:
no

24. Ditched school to do something more fun?:
yes! NJ SKATE SHOP!! haha

25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?:
yes

26. Seen someone die?:
no

27. Been on a plane?:
yes

28. Kissed a picture?:
yes

29. Slept in until 3?:
nope

30. Love someone or miss someone right now?
yes

31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
yes

32. Made a snow angel?:
yes

33. Played dress up?:
all the time!

34. Cheated while playing a game?
yes

35. Felt lonely?:
yes

36. Fallen asleep at work/school?:
yes

**no number 37**

38. Felt an earthquake?:
yes when i was rele little

39. Touched a snake?:
yes

40. Ran a red light?:
yeahh

**no number 41**

42. Had detention?:
yes but i never served it. fitz got me out of it :-)

43. Been in a car accident?:
yes

44. Hated the way you look?:
yes

45. Witnessed a crime?
uhh. vandalizing?

46. Been lost?:
yes

47. Been to the opposite side of the country?:
yes

48. Felt like dying from embarrassment?:
yes

49. Cried yourself to sleep?:
yes

50. Sang karaoke?
YES!

51. Done something you told yourself you wouldnt?:
yes

52. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose?:
yes

53. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?:
yes

54. Kissed in the rian?
yes

55. Sung in the shower?:
yesss

56. Had a dream that you married someone?:
yes

57. Glued your hand to something sticky?
haha yess bridge project 05

58. Got your tongue stuck to a pole?:
no

59. Ever gone to school practically naked?
no

60. Been a cheerleader?:
no

61. Sat on a roof top?:
yes

62. Didn't take a shower for a week?:
no

63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?
yess

64. Ever played truth or dare?:
yes

65. Played spin the bottle:
yes

66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?
yes

**no number 67**

68. Been easily amused?:
yes

69. Laugh so hard you cry?:
yes

70. Cheated on a test?
yes

71. Forgotten someone's name?:
yes

72. blacked out from drinking?:
no

73. Played a prank on someone?:
yes

74. Gone to a late night movie?:
yes

75. Made love to anything not human?:
ahahhahaha no.

76. Failed a class?
no

77. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat?:
yeah

78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours straight?:
no

79. Slept with someone you didn't want to?:
no

80. Did you celebrate the 4th of July?
yes

81. Thrown strange objects?
yes

82. Felt like killing someone?
yes

83. Ran away?:
yepp

84. Thought about running away?:
yes

85. Had detention and not attend it?:
yes

86. Made your parents cry?
hmm. . . yeah! lol

87. Cried over someone?:
yes

88. Owned more than 5 shara?
??

89. Dated someone more than once?:
sort of

90. Have a dog?
no

91. Own an instrument?:
piano violin and i used to own a guitar... oo and drumsticks

92. Been in a band?
no

93. Drank more than 25 sodas a day?:
no

94. Broken a cd?:
yes

95. Shot a gun?:
no

96. been on MySpace for more than 5 hours?
no

97. Hurt yourself on purpose?
no

98. Missed or crush on someone right now?
yes

99. Had a crush on someone when you already had a boyfriend/girlfriend?:
umm yesss


oh to hell with APs
i'm very happy. :-D

10:36AM

Fashion show 2006.

best fucking show ever. hands down.


I've never screamed and yelled so much in my life, and i didn't give a shit.

yeah i did some pretty bad things last night lol some of you know waht i did and yes i'm going to BURN IN HELL. but my show was amazing and thats all that matters. thank you for everyone who was there i <3 you and especially lindsay and her mom, and jackie and her mom from making a special trip just to see this!!!!

i <3ed every moment of it ( okay. almost every moment) and i made so many new friends and i'm so proud of everyone and myself!

DVDs & T-Shirts on sale still. :-)






anyways. . .






-i have no idea what to do with my life.
+ syracuse monday with Shlaf
- actuallyk going to class
- APs
- Senior Paper
- Senior Paper due 4 days before APs
+ prom tables. .DONE
- prom limos ..NOT DONE ( <3 shar)
- no final dress
+ cubans
+ cutting school with Ish.
+ love my models. .. most of them
+ planning a Lilly Pulitzer party


love. love. love. love. love.

5:23PM

Spring Break was the ish.
ish
ish
ish.

Very european, since it was a European cruise line and all.

tres tired and tres tan
picture later maybe.


SALUD!

10:02AM - so basically my snr paper sentence outline is due tomorrow and i haven't rele started.

(a few)Best songs ever written:

The General- Dispatch

The Zephyr Song- RHCP

Jesus etc- Wilco

The Hook- Blues Travelers

Lithium- Nirvana

chemical brothers

I feel home- OAR

you shook me all night long- ACDC

Tiny Dancer- Elton John

Pink Houses- John Melloncamp

Hurricane/Rolling Stone- Bob Dylan

You get what you give- New Radicals

One Way Out- allman brothers

Bittersweet Symphony- The Verve

Ants marching/stay/crash- dmb

freefalling- tom petty

Fast Car- tracy chapman

THe way we get by- talib kweli

Thats the way we get by- spoon

there's more. obvs but i realized it's almost 10 30 and i havne't done shit for my senior paper.
FUCK THE SNR PPR. on the bright side, i sorted out all the models/stores/lineups/partnering for the Fashion show. so complicated because there aren't enough formal outfits for all the girls and so some girls have to have 2 casual, but i have to space them out and give them enought time to change etc etc and then i have to do lineups and shit. whatevs, it's done now, and if anyone on the board gives me crap about it, i'll set them on fire and say they didn't do shit. there. i'm a bitch.

this show better be good. thats all i can say
APRIL 20th THURSDAY!!! MHS AUDITORIUM!!!
and buy a teeshirt, they're really nice, we have crew neck and then a polo shirt. white with a crest emblem on the breast, the teeshirts have words on the lower back. very cool.




i'm so inbetween

7:45PM - from le sami

FINISH THE SENTENCE.

maybe i should get my license
I love...sitting on the deck and doing hw
I don't understand... WHY I’m NOT HEARING FROM MCGILL
People say i'm... lovingly honest
Love is... all around
somewhere, someone ... is making jello ( go ask alice?)
I will always... live it up
Forever is... a diamond
I never want to... slack off in general
When I wake up in the morning... I sing along to macy gray which is my alarm
Life is full of... shit
I get annoyed when... there’s traffic in the halls
Parties are for... getting loaded and making lots of phone calls
Tomorrow I'm going... call mcgill/call DMV/call fashion show stuff
I really want... spring break to come
I have low tolerance for people who... are annoying
If i had a million dollars... oh you know. Genocide. . . Hunger. . . Louboutins

WHAT WERE YOU DOING...

1 MINUTE AGO: I was on the phone with Connor
1 HOUR AGO: I was eating kashi
1 DAY AGO: I was outside
1 YEAR AGO: I dn. Prolly studying for SAT or something
I LOVE: surfing
I HATE: bad/misleading weather
I FEAR: failure
I FEEL: full
I HIDE: lots of things
I MISS : last summer
I NEED: a pilates class
I KNOW: nothing

FIRSTS..
First piercing: -
First credit card: -
First musician Vivaldi (?) or Eurythmics
LASTSs..
Last long car ride: with Lindsayface
Last movie seen: UNDISCOVERED hahaa
Last food consumed: one single gusher
Last person you texted/called: that I called. . . shari. That called me. connor
Last CD played: Chemical Brothers
Last drink drank: Water
Last time scolded: 2 hrs ago
SHORT ANSWER..
I AM: crazy
I NEED: a car/license/acceptance to mcgill/wakeforest
I HAVE: great friends
I LIKE: patent leather
I WISH: to stop world hunger
I WONDER: if there are aliens
I SING: alot
I CRY: rarely
I AM ALWAYS: pretty happy
I WILL: do what I want when I grow up
FAVORITES..
NUMBER: 8
COLOUR: pink and green
DAY: sunday
MONTH: august
SEASON: summer
DRINK: VOSS water
IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED?: yes
HELPED SOMEONE?: yep
GOTTEN SICK?: no. dammit
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: no
SAID I LOVE YOU?: yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? YES TO SLEEPING BEAUTY <33 haha
TALKED TO AN EX?: ex boyfriend? No. ex hookup? Yes ex friend? Yes. Ex neighbor? Yes. Ex employer? Yes.
WRITTEN IN A DIARY?: yep
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yes
HUGGED SOMEONE?: many people


Things that need to happen
- LK the love of my life needs to recover from her 1 month strain of MONO
- I need to go swimming w. Sharifa
- Stage set
- Stage set
- Stage set
- Licenseeeeeeeeee
- GET THROUGH MY SENIOR PAPER and stop bullshitting lol
- a sex change for Mz. Parker <3
- Crew Reunion # . . . 3? lol
- Prom shit ( me nd shari's plan is FLAWLESS haha)

10:34PM - i coudn't resist.

1. list ten points of your perfect lover
2. specify the gender of your perfect lover
3. tag four people who must also participate
4. no tag-backs

1. 95% intelligent- I say intelligent and not smart because those are two wayy different things, I want to be able to talk to him about things other than physics or history, I want to talk to him about Kerouac, Modigliani, and Rand. I just don't want them to be TOO intelligent to the point where they think. why is my gf such an idiot? I can't stand stupid people who waste their time accomplishing nothing.

2. 90% strong and cuddly and wonderful at spooning( okay i combined like 3 into one but it's okay)- spooning is the best thing. ever. and I love being held in nice arms because u feel so safe and like you fit there.

3. 80% funny- you MUST be funny. and this has different degrees of funnyness. Sarcastic, Cute, Mean( but not too mean but funny but nice mean), and Silly.

(do the percents have to add up to 100??)

4. 90% good looking- yeah i said it. since this is the perfect lover, I can have him 2 or 3 ways- the clean cut no gel necessary prep school looking kid who smokes cigars and owns millions of vinyard vines shirts from vacation and lets me borrow them to sleep in, or the kid who doesnt give a fuck with long hair and scruff and showers when he wants and wears the hottest ensemble of effortless chic clothing ever, which makes you want to rip them off and gives you flowers from your own garden.

5. 80% spontaneous- someone who will have fun with life and literally lives in the moment, but not a tool who makes stupid moves and fucks up his life( but thats sorta hott too). I want him to be silly and outgoing

6. 60 % romantic- just because i've gotten around to watching TV lately and i want a cute person who asks me to prom in a really cheesey way or cuddles with me all the time and leaves me suprises in bed or something like that.

7. 90% Honest & Trustworthy- I've learned that I can't stand lying, even if it's diana lying about who ate the last truffle or something. It gets on my nerves and tells me you can't trust me enough with anything and that i'm not worth the time to tell it to or explain it to. being cheated on is the worst feeling ever- not that i've been( or know of), but it must be. but if it's 'for my own good' or something.. . on ly in certain circumstances and only if you do something incredibly cute to make up for it ( i've been wtaching too many movies)

8. 90% Athletic of some kind- please. anything. preferably not baseball, football, or basketball. Tennis, golf, lacrosse, surfing, skateboarding, soccer, polo, sailing, snowboarding, freaking horseback riding, i dont care! pick one!

9. 0% metro. if you are metro or take longer to get dressed than I do, you have got to go. I would love to have someone to get facials with me but thats why I have a gay best friend. duh.

10. 100% irresistable- anything about you has to make me think of you all the time, wether it be hair, cologne, body, music, hobby,food, talent i don't care. you need to have something that makes me want you all the time, no matter what mood i'm in.



Alas, he does not exist

4:46PM

Shuffle . . . first 20 songs Guess the Songs.

1. We're both such magnificent liars. so crush me baby i'm all ears

2.  Well let me get to the point. lets roll another joint. and turn the radio loud. . . .you dont' know how it feels. .to be meeeeeee

3.I"m super i'm nothing i'm no one going no where fast and i don't care.

4.  Where I go i just don't know. i've got to got to gotta take it slow. When I find my piece of mind I'm gona give u some of my good time

5. If you want it, you can have it But you've got to learn to reach out there and grab it

6. But you can't hide standing under these stars they know everything they know where you are

7. I'm Mr. Lonely. I have no body for my own. Lonely. I'm mr Lonely

8. You grew up way too fast And now there's nothing to believe And reruns all become our history A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio And I won't tell no one your name

9. Something in her style that shows me I don't wanna leave her now I know I believe and how

10.  Give me back my point of view 'Cause I just can't think for you

11. If you can't dance. If you can't dance. If you can't dance If you can't dance to this. You can do nothing for me baby

12. We had no home front We had no soft soap They sent us playboy They gave us bob hope

13. Cross your fingers, and pray for winter  I'll be there  Painting the town your favorite color.

14.How many days in a year She woke up with hope But she only found tears

15. You’ve seen the difference and it’s getting better all the time There’s nothing you and I won’t do I’ll stop the world and melt with you

16. It seems we living the american dream But the people highest up got the lowest self esteem The prettiest people do the ugliest things

17. your heavy heart  is made of stone  and it's so hard to see you clearly  you don't have to be on your own

18. Yeah, It's that easy  As easy as pie  That shit goes on forever  So make a conscious try  To improve, nothing to lose

19. She knows nothing about life She knows everything about living
*** this is one of my favorite quotes :-)

20. Here I go letting go just to never let you go



I can't even begin to update about the weekend. I'll find time later.
but I LOVE MY FRIENDS

7:19PM

Looking Forward To:
-Westfield on Friday!!!
- Snow Day Tomorrow
- Federicis
- Free day on Wed
- Stone Pony
- Saturday night in the city

<3 OLE MISS

9:43AM - I ain't here on business baby. . .

Good things
-Shari making me play lax w. her today
-Kashi whole grain bars
-Trent taking me out for V-day
-having an unofficial valentine
-having a lesbionic date w. shari nd ilana @ federicis on v-day
-the new computer
-the DVDR drive on the new comp
-the fact that i can hook up my ipod now
-DEATHCAB FOR CUTIE + FRANZ FERDINAND = PERFECTION
-Format/mcs tix
-a super good gym class
-model tryouts and adorable freshmen boys
-LK's "special" handshake
- Gettign deferred from  McGill i thought i was gonna get rejected phewf
- my new haircut. it's growing on me. el mullet de lesbo
-Mr. MHS

Bad Things
- procrastinating college shit/not sending out my resume
- short hair ( ***shorter hair)
-Not having a job/too lazy to find a job
-not having an official prom date
-not having official spring break plans.
-mom being retarded and not BOOKING ANYTHING
-not being able to make it to NY Fashion Week :-(
- ROB"S HAIR haha ilu!
-not being able to get tickets for last night's show at the stone pony
- Firebush and Yentle

When Ms Spahr was going over our Senior paper schedule, I realized that graduation is only a hop, skip and a spring break away. And i'm going to miss people. there. i admitted it. I WILL MISS PEOPLE AT MARLBORO HIGH SCHOOL. and it's good now that i'm spending so much time with my friends ** correction. just shari actually haha. I want to hang out with ALL of my friends and just spend quality time together.

Places I need to go
Dartmouth
Rutgers
Minnesota/Michigan
Babson
Just college visiting in general

Ilana&Shari are going away this weekend which means I will have a bad weekend. again.
bastards.


awh

Love,
Mengjie

10:29PM - There are so many things that I would like to say to you. but i don't know how

Oooo i'm excited. i'm getting a copy of a strip music cd that ilana made (with my help of course)

 Today was fun. It was gorgeous outside. I was just walking down the halls in school and i woudl look outside and smile. But then i know next week is going to be GAHH. I love when early spring comes and it's beautiful weather every day :-D. So wolfie and moi went shopping a little and we checked out the Luella Bartley collection at Target. It's better than Mizrahi's but thats bc Mizrahi's collection was targeted towards 20s-30s. while Luella's collection is very cliche london grunge. Cute. very cute. i mean. . bad. don't get it!!!

then we went to el mall (ewww) with mindy and we did some shoping there. I helped pick out a darling outfit for sarah's gov debate and I got a few pieces myself even thought i told myself i couldn't spend any more money nemore. . . I have to save it for . ..stuff.

I really want to be able to go to Bonnaroo. and Coachella. Lets see who's going to be there. . .

SATURDAY APRIL 29, 2006
Depeche Mode
Daft Punk
Franz Ferdinand
Sigur Ros
Damian Jr Gong Marley
Common
Atmosphere
Carl Cox
My Morning Jacket
TV on the Radio
Ladytron
Clap Your Hands Say Yeah
Tosca
Cat Power
Animal Collective
HARD-Fi
Derrick Carter
Devendra Banhart
She Wants Revenge
The Walkmen
The Juan Maclean
Imogen Heap
Audio Bullys
Lady Sovereign
Deerhoof
The Duke Spirit
Eagles of Death Metal
Lyrics Born
Matt Costa
The New Amsterdams
The Zutons
Platinum Pied Pipers
White Rose Movement
Chris Liberator
Colette
Joey Beltram
Hybrid
Living Things
Wolfmother
The Like
Nine Black Alps
Celebration
The Section Quartet
Shy FX & T Power
Infusion

Sunday
Tool
Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Bloc Party
Paul Oakenfold
Scissor Sisters
Matisyahu
James Blunt
Sleater-Kinney
Mogwai
Coheed and Cambria
Wolf Parade
Coldcut
Phoenix
Digable Planets
Amadou & Mariam
Little Louie Vega
Mylo (DJ Set)
Seu Jorge
Gnarls Barkley
The Go! Team
Kaskade
Metric
Editors
Art Brut
Dungen
The Dears
Jamie Lidell
The Magic Numbers
Los Amigos Invisibles
Jazzanova
stellastarr
Michael Mayer
Murs featuring 9th wonder
Mates of State
Gilles Peterson
Infadels
Gabriel & Dresden
The Subways
Minus the Bear
OneRepublic
Be Your Own Pet
Youth Group
Giant Drag
Kristina Sky
The Octopus Project

wow. I hate myself for not living in California.

Now. to Bonnaroo

Radiohead

Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers

Phil Lesh & Friends

Beck

Elvis Costello & the Imposters

Bonnie Raitt

Death Cab for Cutie

moe.

Bright Eyes

The Neville Brothers

Bela Fleck & The Flecktones

Buddy Guy

Damian "Jr. Gong" Marley

Ben Folds

Robert Randolph & The Family Band

Dr. John

Matisyahu

G. Love & Special Sauce

My Morning Jacket

Ricky Skaggs & Kentucky Thunder

Steel Pulse

Mike Gordon & Ramble Dove

Cat Power

Medeski Martin & Wood

Nickel Creek

Gomez

Atmosphere

Steve Earle

Blues Traveler

Amadou & Mariam

Stephen Malkmus & the Jicks

The Dresden Dolls

Son Volt

Clap Your Hands Say Yeah

Jerry Douglas

Soulive

Rusted Root

Devendra Banhart Band

Donavon Frankenreiter<3

Mike Doughty

Sasha

Grace Potter & the Nocturnals

The Magic Numbers

Bill Frisell

Seu Jorge

Bettye LaVette

Dungen

Shooter Jennings

Rebirth Brass Band

Robinella

Andrew Bird

Ivan Neville's Dumstaphunk

Steel Train

Jackie Greene

Devotchka

The Wood Brothers

dios (malos)

Toubab Krewe

The Motet

Marah

I-Nine

Balkan Beat Box

The Cat Empire

oh Pooh.
School's a complete waste now that we do NOTHING. I have english first, then math. then my day is seriously over. AP euro is a joke. int design. i don't go to that class nemore she gives me passes to go to the 'library' aka go to 7th period lunch and visit maya. Business we do nothing I just listen to kids fight about who's smarter. Economics we eat pretzels, make fun of mr anderson, and listen to music. Gym. yeah. psh.


let the hours roll by
doing nothing for the fun
A little taste of the good life
Whether right or wrong
Makes us want to stay,
stay,
stay,
stay,
stay,
stay here for awhile.

4:41PM

I need a job. My dad basically said to me that he doen'st want to pay for anything anymore. He gave lots of money though, how i love being chinese. And last week, I was completely broke. i had 5 singles in my cig case and that was it. lol it was pretty bleak but i got by. . .with a little help from my friends.

So. Prospective job opportunities
- Metropolitan Cafe Hostess
- Main St. Bistro Hostess
- Art Gallery Assistant ( somewhere close, like in marlboro or freehold. etc)
- Art School Assistant ( Art around the corner!). I can't see myself working in a place like Michaels.

I'm going to need amazing hours.
Tuesday, and Thursday. Saturday morning and sometimes Sundays
Pay should be good. $10+ per hour
And I want a discount/ benefits

pshhh yeah. just kidding. Yale sort of ruined any job expectations for me. I was overpaid. underworked. and treated too nicely( uh own computer/desk/closet/lab coat/ and Yale ID for discounts anywhere in New Haven :-D)  I can't be a waitress, I don't have that waitressing skill lol. and I can't be a cashier bc i want to like my job. So. Yeah. basically i'm never finding a job.

Midterms are over!
it's crusin' now

11:33PM - Jah Mon. Jah.

I knew today was gonna be good. But i did not know today was gonna be amazing.

Midterms. Whatever. Winged lit and I didn't memorize ONE formula for math and that like. costed me 10 pts lol. whatevssssss. Then me nd yana got caught on the traffic getting out of the school bc our class was on the opposite side of the school and it sucked. Luckily, I told her to cut into the bus lane and we got out in like 5 mins instead oflike 20.

Redbank with Shari and Ilana was wonderful as per usual. One little letdown but a million good things. I can't even remember them all at this point, i'm so tired lol. We had lunch at Zebu <3. Skeevy guys checked us out and we puked in o ur mouths lol. Obsessed with Bees Knees. I had to talk to the stores about the fashion show. it went quite well. Ilana had to leave to go to the city to pick up her boo. She got lost trying to find her car -_____- lol. Then me nd shari did the usual and we tried on the most hideous prom dresses we could find in NY trends. it was hilarious. walked around for a bit more. We left at like. .6 lol went back to her house. stopped by people's houses and picked up Jordan and Zach and kicked it in redbank at this Reggae Fest featuring The Crusader Lion and the Creation Steppers. hahhaa. SOO FREAKING COOL. mad mad cool. the icafe is the chillest place to just hang and listen to music and dance. had a great time there. Then. . . we had to FLOOR it home bc of my mom and i told her i was at shari's house and how i was gonna be home in 2 mintues. aka 35 lol. got in shit but whatevs. it's all good. It was worth it.

Then as SOON as I walk in the door, ilana calls and goes. .COME TO MY HOUSE RIGHT NOW. TONS OF PPLE ARE HERE. and i'm just like. -______-. why did i go home lol.

So much to do/put up with. esp tomorrow when my dad comes home. yeah! great!

Later Gators.

Rastas are tres cool. tres coool. . tres. .

11:47PM

There are some friends that you just don't get tired of.
you see them every day of your life
you could be in a good mood or bad mood
and ur just super happy when you're with them and you have fun no matter what you do; whether it be a gross trip to the mall, random lax practices, redbank or any of the places you've dubbed "our places".

I'm so happy to have the most fantastic friends ever!

Why do we have to worry about prom so early?!? it's tres lame to be thinking about dates and limos now.  It's january! you can't have a date in january for a may prom! I have yet to find one but it seems everyone else has one already. But for now. I have found my future husband. . . I will be. .Mrs. Mengjie Burrows


Taj <3
and him again. . .

or does Mrs. Mengjie Malloy sound better?
. . .keithy.

john john florence is 12 yeears old and he can charge harder than alot of pros. haha the kid is stoked as a mother and he's adorable.


My obsession song of the moment is Beating Heart Baby. i was obsessed w. it last year but it such a good song.

midterms blow
prom dilemmas blow
europe blows
not being in america blows
krispy kreme blowwwws


Audi kids.

11:34PM - When I have an espresso at 9 pm . . .

Your Fashion Style is Classic

You like what's stood the test of time... Simple, well styled clothes that don't scream trendy You stay updated and modern, but your clothes stay in style for a while You wouldn't be caught in animal prints, fake fur, or super bright colors

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

Your Celebrity Sisters Are Mary-Kate and Ashley

Funky, eccentric, and offbeat You're not a good girl or a bad girl, just a weird girl

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and then i saw a quiz for . .." what color should your toenails be". ...and i X-ed out the page immediately

Tomorrow should be fun.
good times with the cult haha

5:53PM

All in all and I'm
Loving every rise and fall
The sun will make and I will take breath to be sure of this
-rhcp

 iPo chose that as my morning alarm song 2 days ago and that was partially the reason I was late; I stayed in bed and listened to that song like 3 times. Last year, around this time, I had a mini breakdown because of all the schoolwork/midterms/SATs. . . etc. This year obvs isn’t that bad, but I have so much school work! And tests and quizzes and projects etc. In discreet. Your midterm is a project where u get to hot glue things on a board, and there is no final. Wtf. I don’t think i’m going to pass the pre calc midterm bc i can’t memorize everything. Booo

So, yesterday my dad handed me an offer on a plate (not literally), and I really am thinking about it. I don’t know if I will take it up or not, but it’s such an amazing offer and to pass would be such a waste. But then again, taking it would be a waste too. 5 years. But then an BA/MA in 5 years wouldn’t be exactly horrible. And I’d be very educated and . .. i dn. I really don’t know.
I think i need to take one day off, and do nothing but think.  I’ll go to Starbucks and get a few espressos, and cappuccinos and just think everything over. How many people get a chance like this? But I’d be missing out, but not that much when I think about it; not getting massive 4 nights in a row isn’t that bad. I’d have my own apartment and much more $$ that I would here. Gahhhhhhhhhhhhh i dn. I need a pros/cons list but that never did anything for me lol.

I had.
The most.
Amazing.
Salad.
At chili’s the other day. Chicken strip salad w. Mandarin oranges and yummy dressing. It was absolutely orgasmic. Then coincidentally, I bumped into Ilana at B&N and we had fun, and then I did the usual.

Fashion club board meeting today and I feel like I should just take out a machine gun and just massacre everyone there and just run the show by myself. A white polo shirt w. A big royal crest as the logo. Isn’t that better than some lame ass t-shirt 2 sizes too big that never wear ever again, unless to bed?!?!?!?!?!
I don’t care if a few jappy wastes say they woudlnt’ buy it!!!! I DONT” WANT THEM TO WEAR IT. A TEESHIRT IS CRAPPY!!!! FASHION THROUGH THE DECADES IS A CHEESEY THEME!!! CHEESEY PROPS ON THE STAGE IS. . . CHEESEY!!! I really wish I was an official model judge during model tryouts. I will be all . .Simon from American Idol. Lol

Things I would like to say. . .

“ It’s MY show bitches. My show”

“You’re ugly and fat. Go on a fat flush and then come back”

“Hippie skirts are dead. If I see a hippie skirt, I’m going to kick you in the face”

“If I see ‘prom hair’ or ‘prom makeup’ I will shove the curling iron up your ass”

“DIE”

oh i love how i get so passionate about this.

here's the polo shirt logo. . but it will be in color

10:44AM - Eureka!

It's been an amazing weekend. for the following reasons

- I have submitted the last application EVER
- I love it when people tell me their stories from college. . . .at 5 am.
- I love it when the same people go online shitfaced and say " CAN I POOP ONYOUR CHEST" <3
- I FOUND MY PROM DRESS :-D
- I FOUND MY PROM DRESS
- I FOUND MY PROM DRESS
- I FOUND MY PROM DRESS
- I applied to washington and lee 10 mins before the deadline on a whim
          and immediately regreted it after i paid 85 bucks for app fee + sat scores
- I found clothes in the back of my closet that i've never seen before
- My dad told me that me, my mom and diana were going to Hawaii for spring break :-D
- I love my friends!

So i'm putting up a picture of the dress comments are appreciated.
:-D with black peep toe pumps. ooo i love it. it's vintage Fred Perlberg from the 50s I believe and it's all imported lace :-D !!!

I'm in love with it.

Tonight should be fun. I have nothing to wear. and where the fuck did all this snow/ice come from.

I uploaded all of maya's cd onto my ipod finally and Bleu's album Redhead is VERY VERY good. extremely good. fantastic. u get the idea.

9:40PM - I'm in love with . . .

so fucking goooooooooooooooooooooooood

everyone should dl. . .

Rodeo Clowns
Dreamin
Friday Night
Willow Tree
Kick Drum

-G. Love

I can't think about prom now. It's wayyyy to fucking early to be doing this lol. now i'm like. i don't wanna go anymore bc it's so much work lol i <3 connor bc he's taking care of all of this ( hopefully!) and I don't have to do a thing, but to show up all dressed up.  Do we REALLY need a 2000 limo? I'm fine with any ride really. . .town car, taxi. . . my mom ( jk!).

I'm taking tomorrow off from school because I have to write essays/finish writing essays for
-Babson
-GW (the deadline said jan 10th. ... .but jan 15th on common app)
-Wake Forest ( 8 fuckign essays)
-Richmond
and my mom is making me apply to Wash U and some other schools. whatevs.

i <3 my ipod. it's giving me songs i've never listened to before when i press shuffle ( because I always go by albums and never artists/songs and there are songs that dont' have an album, so i never see them when i search by album. . <3 ipo)

January is bustin my balls. ( what a classy thing to say)



Prom Dress: Dior Couture circa 1957 . .